Bring In The New Year By Doing Something Positive And Compelling

What a difference a year makes

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All day long I have been trying not to think about what this day was like last year.  Let’s just say it was a day that would drive most people over the edge of sanity but I managed to skim by with only a piece of my soul shutting down.  This is the day that the true hatred for my husbands new-found love really settled in and made itself right at home in my heart.  The battle has been long, hard and ongoing but I am making awesome improvements daily and am humbled by the astonishing lessons I am learning in this journey.

 

You may or may not know that I am in the process of writing a Spiritual book that I intend to get published this year.  There are a few close friends proofreading and giving  much-needed guidance as this dream unfolds.   I am also hiring a lady named Joyce Glass “The Write Coach” to see me through this process.  As I am working on this book, my own heart is being taught very valuable lessons and there are a lot of questions being answered that I have had for years. The depression is lifting and being replaced with excitement, anticipation and motivation to strive for more of everything imaginable.

Back to today.  Today is New Year’s Eve 2017.  Just hours before the “New Beginning” of 2018 starts.  Today I needed to do something empowering and positive for “Me”.  A bit of an ego booster, I suppose.  I decided to do something that at first I was sure I was in over my head with.  It might be simple for some of you but for me, it was so huge that I let them sit on my floor for a week because I was afraid of failing.  You may have even seen my Facebook post about it.  A 5 shelf bookcase is the nemesis.  Not just one mind you but two.  I bought two of these.  What was I thinking?

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I posted this picture after putting that one piece together and said “What possessed me to think that I could put this shelf together???  It has been on my floor ever since.  Just taunting me with my own self doubt.

Today, however, I picked up the directions with fresh eyes and a “fresh attitude” and I understood every singe word of the directions.   The happiness and accomplishment I felt while putting this bookshelf together was a very welcome combination of positive emotions on this particular day.

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The more compelling things we do, the more in command we will be over our depression and negative thoughts.  No superwoman pose needed today because my positive behavior dictated my positive thoughts and vice versa.

One down and one to go!

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BAM!
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Finally getting organized
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One more to go!
               HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!  BRING ON 2018

 


	

No Holiday Blues Allowed!


For the past 15 years I dreaded each and every holiday that was supposed to be filled with joy, happiness and excitement.  My husband had and still has seasonal depression which made it difficult, to say the least, for me to experience any joy at all during these times.  There was never a Christmas tree or presents, no holiday dinners or parties with friends.  Just the two of us going out to dinner and wishing the holidays would hurry up and come to an end.

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Christmas this year, however, will be different if it kills me!  Christmas music sounds warm and wonderful to my ears and the hustle and bustle of shoppers is electrifying! The last few weeks I zipped in and out of stores carrying out loads of presents for my grandkids.  Smiling and singing the whole time.  Decorations light up the cities and neighborhoods like beacons of love and goodwill to all.  Being around my family this year is also like a homecoming of love and togetherness.

Most of us are missing someone we love this year and the sadness can find a way in if we let it.  I choose to remember my son and others I miss sorely by thinking of their impact on this world and so many hearts.  After all, I picture my boy with Jesus and I think he has the better end of the deal.

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One week before the day of giving to each other and of ourselves , it is tempting to reflect on the years past with sadness and regret.   I sit at my desk writing this blog post and  realize that I am looking clearly into the future with optimism and faith.

There is no room for depression in my heart today.  I won’t make room for it this time. It isn’t welcome here and it needs to be known.  Today, I make room for love, acceptance, laughter and happiness.

My family fuels my energy to love more and to love deeply.  I feel like I was a withering plant when I came here last year and they nourished me with their sunlight and plucked away the dead leaves I was holding onto.  The family God blessed me with saved my life by not letting my light stop shining and for this I am humbly grateful.

 No more tears of sadness on Christmas

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No more “making it go away for a little while”

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I am a child of God and I will get up every time I fall and try again because I have a purpose.

 

Merry Christmas 2017