This question was put to me today: “What is creativity to you?” My first thoughts weren’t of arts and crafts or even design. My first thought was “Creativity is orchestrating my environment to meet the desired life I want and need. When I was a single mother of three, the erratic shifts of big box stores didn’t mesh with my need to be available when my boys were home after school and at night while still being able to earn an income to support the four of us. When they were very young, I was a substitute teacher in their schools and a teacher with Parks & Recreation during the summers. My boys and I were together every day during those years and being involved in their education as well as their summer fun was a blessing. As they got older and I needed a higher income, I managed to build a business of cleaning homes, offices and real estate that surpassed my expectations on every level. I had the perfect hours and quadrupled my income instantly. That…is creativity.
Fast forward to my life now and my boys are successful men with children of their own. I have the luxury of living rent free at my oldest sons house (only costs me 2 days of babysitting my grandson) and my house cleaning job now consists of two half-days a week, which pays all of my meager bills. My creativity now turns to my writing. Now I have orchestrated my environment to allow me to write as often as I need to as well as travel anywhere I want to go to write. For the most part, my time is my own and I am setting into motion, the life I want now. That life is to write my book and the others that are just forming in my mind. Creativity to me will always be out of the box ideas to enrich this one life I have been given.
All day long I have been trying not to think about what this day was like last year. Let’s just say it was a day that would drive most people over the edge of sanity but I managed to skim by with only a piece of my soul shutting down. This is the day that the true hatred for my husbands new-found love really settled in and made itself right at home in my heart. The battle has been long, hard and ongoing but I am making awesome improvements daily and am humbled by the astonishing lessons I am learning in this journey.
You may or may not know that I am in the process of writing a Spiritual book that I intend to get published this year. There are a few close friends proofreading and giving much-needed guidance as this dream unfolds. I am also hiring a lady named Joyce Glass “The Write Coach” to see me through this process. As I am working on this book, my own heart is being taught very valuable lessons and there are a lot of questions being answered that I have had for years. The depression is lifting and being replaced with excitement, anticipation and motivation to strive for more of everything imaginable.
Back to today. Today is New Year’s Eve 2017. Just hours before the “New Beginning” of 2018 starts. Today I needed to do something empowering and positive for “Me”. A bit of an ego booster, I suppose. I decided to do something that at first I was sure I was in over my head with. It might be simple for some of you but for me, it was so huge that I let them sit on my floor for a week because I was afraid of failing. You may have even seen my Facebook post about it. A 5 shelf bookcase is the nemesis. Not just one mind you but two. I bought two of these. What was I thinking?
I posted this picture after putting that one piece together and said “What possessed me to think that I could put this shelf together??? It has been on my floor ever since. Just taunting me with my own self doubt.
Today, however, I picked up the directions with fresh eyes and a “fresh attitude” and I understood every singe word of the directions. The happiness and accomplishment I felt while putting this bookshelf together was a very welcome combination of positive emotions on this particular day.
The more compelling things we do, the more in command we will be over our depression and negative thoughts. No superwoman pose needed today because my positive behavior dictated my positive thoughts and vice versa.