What a difference a year makes
All day long I have been trying not to think about what this day was like last year. Let’s just say it was a day that would drive most people over the edge of sanity but I managed to skim by with only a piece of my soul shutting down. This is the day that the true hatred for my husbands new-found love really settled in and made itself right at home in my heart. The battle has been long, hard and ongoing but I am making awesome improvements daily and am humbled by the astonishing lessons I am learning in this journey.
You may or may not know that I am in the process of writing a Spiritual book that I intend to get published this year. There are a few close friends proofreading and giving much-needed guidance as this dream unfolds. I am also hiring a lady named Joyce Glass “The Write Coach” to see me through this process. As I am working on this book, my own heart is being taught very valuable lessons and there are a lot of questions being answered that I have had for years. The depression is lifting and being replaced with excitement, anticipation and motivation to strive for more of everything imaginable.
Back to today. Today is New Year’s Eve 2017. Just hours before the “New Beginning” of 2018 starts. Today I needed to do something empowering and positive for “Me”. A bit of an ego booster, I suppose. I decided to do something that at first I was sure I was in over my head with. It might be simple for some of you but for me, it was so huge that I let them sit on my floor for a week because I was afraid of failing. You may have even seen my Facebook post about it. A 5 shelf bookcase is the nemesis. Not just one mind you but two. I bought two of these. What was I thinking?
I posted this picture after putting that one piece together and said “What possessed me to think that I could put this shelf together??? It has been on my floor ever since. Just taunting me with my own self doubt.
Today, however, I picked up the directions with fresh eyes and a “fresh attitude” and I understood every singe word of the directions. The happiness and accomplishment I felt while putting this bookshelf together was a very welcome combination of positive emotions on this particular day.
The more compelling things we do, the more in command we will be over our depression and negative thoughts. No superwoman pose needed today because my positive behavior dictated my positive thoughts and vice versa.
One down and one to go!
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! BRING ON 2018